ripping wings off of butterflies.

Today was a pretty amazing day, besides the waking up super early for NHS tapping ceremony.  However I am kind of excited to be a part of NHS, I kind of miss giving back to the community, and I like having things to do sometimes lol.  And I got to dress up in heels and a dress and got many compliments I loveee dressing up and wearing heels, haha.  Then I had a math quiz I'm pretty sure I did good on, then I had a chemistry quiz which was really easy too.   It doesn't get too much better than that, well it will but today was better than its been recently lol. Ohh and Miley is on AI :) good good day.

I think we should have a masquerade ball that would be pretty cool. Reminds me of Cinderella story.

Some people just don't understand how perfect they are for eachother.

the veronicas :) I'm pretty sure this was the beginning  to my concert obsession.

hello gorgeous where have you been hiding?

Love is beautiful, this is like something straight out of a Sarah Dessen book.

Playlist:

Brick By Boring Brick- Paramore

Go Outside- Cults

Clearwater- What Happened In Vegas

Scars- Papa Roach

Fires- Band of Skulls

Lullaby- Rogue Wave 

Today was a good day :)  I got accepted into NHS, and I am pretty excited for it.  plus tomorrow we have like a ceremony so it gives me a reason to dress up!! I'm thinking a dress and heels. mhmmm. Douche maybe will rethink when he sees me in the hall and dont give him the time of day hahahaha.  And guess what only eight more days of school until break yayyyyy! So excited to hit the beach, it better be good weather that week. Today was awfully cold practicing was not fun, but I am also super excited for our super scrimmage and wearing our PURPLE tie dyed shirts to school, sorry for all the obnoxiousness I am super excited if you can't tell. And the downtown fiction concert is a week away and we're going to make shirts this weekend, gosh this is wayy too much excitement :D haha. and im too lazy to make this a cool post sorry.

I want a song thats just ours.

I never ever want to see a bag of mulch until next year.  Delivering mulch can actually be pretty fun at times but its hard work and the smell is pretty bad and isnt the easiest smell to get rid of. But we got it done in two days a long two days but we did it.  And after we had a little team bonding get together which was tons of fun and I can tell this season is going to be lots of fun.  Julie got a black eye but it was pretty funny and looked extremely legit Erica should work at a haunted house or something she's that talented, and I played never have I ever for the first time and that games pretty fun but I'm definitely looking forward to sunday kicking some st.ursula butt then tie dying and locker signs :) But tomorrow  I am going to visit Wittenburg so I better get some sleep.

So Amanda I am pretty sure you had one of these wreck books but you wouldnt let me see it and I came across this picture of one and I thought it looked pretty epic. Did you ever complete yours?

I would be really impressed if anyone ever got me flowers that looked like this, these are the coolest.

I hate Huck Finn but I love this quote by Mark Twain.

I totally did not recognize her at all at first. lol.

I want a key necklace like super super bad.

Playlist:

Skyway Avenue- We The Kings

Kiss N Tell- Ke$ha

Our Song- Taylor Swift

Chelsea- The Summer Set

I might have to wait, I'll never give up, I guess it's half timing, and the other half's luck

My mom picked the house we are staying in for North Carolina today and it is literally the coolest thing ever I am soo pshyced for spring break.  Its got like a dome shape to it and its hard to explain but it is legit the coolest thing on this planet!!!!!   Gosh I don't know how to make it through these next few weeks of school, haha.  My attention span has gone out the window.  I really can;t think of anything else to talk about cause my day was basically a repeat of yesterday but with a trip to mr.freeze after drug testing. So maybe I will go to bed at a semi decent time tonight lol.

I really want to ride a roller coaster.

I want to try this place one day, its one of the jonas brothers favorites lol.

For real if you are ever headed for California take me with you :)

I am always afraid my heart will mix those two feelings up.

Playlist:

Haven't Met You Yet- Michael Buble

Knockout- Lil Wayne

we're more alike than anybody could ever tell.

I am really liking this whole two hour delay thing all week.  But it's also pretty pointless cause we don't get much done in class, and it all pretty much seems rushed.  But oh well I like the two extra hours of sleep and barely any homework :)  So I was telling my mom about the tank tops I liked in Miley's line and guess what later tonight she came home with one, that made my night.  Maybe this weekend I should start talking about how much I need another swim suit for spring break. lol.  

I loved this movie and that boy is absolutely gorgeous, Angus, Thongs, and Full Frontal Snogging.

This ring is adorable, but I dont quite understand double rings, I feel like it would be a pain in the butt.

I wish my parents would have gotten something cool engraved on the back of my ipod instead of just my initials, thats so lame.

I love them, sadly I don't remember the last time I saw them together. 

Playlist:

Buzzin- Shwayze

Ashley- The Dodos

Are You Gonna Be My Girl- Jet

That's Not My Name- The Ting Tings

Witchcraft- Matt Costa

Finish Line- Fanfarlo

Stiil you're a shining star, no matter who you are.

Today I've come to a realization, and this weekend I've done a lot of thinking, and I am happier than I have ever been with who I am.  Lately I've been really down mostly due to love and boys, or more of the lack of i guess, but Nina Dobrev helped me see you can be extremely happy without a boy.  I've seen her in degrassi and was never really a fan of her until I read the article in Seventeen about her and she helped me figure out alot about myself.  She too tried to be the best at everything she did and realized she only ended up stressing herself out and coming up short. "I had to realize there is no such thing as perfect- you do the best you can and have fun."  Then is when I saw she was a lot like me, and with this next statement she impacted me and is part of the reason I feel so much better about myself than I have in a long time.  "I'm very confident in being single until I find someone who I'm crazy about and who I want to devote my time and love to. Until then, I will just be on my own and I am totally fine with that."  Nina is now definitely one of my new idols.  I'm no longer going to let stupid boys get me down, having Amanda over this weekend also helped this new awakening.  She's always tried to convince me of this but it hasn't been until now that I've listened.  So here's to being happy, here's to being single, here's to imperfection, and most of all here's to two hour delays all week long!!! :)

I love her dress too :)

btw... I have to get my Jonas fix in,  Joe and Demi are rumored to be dating, I really hope they are they are adorable and I love the song make a wave they did together, that I will probably listen to a lot over spring break which I will hopefully be spending beach side :)

 Playlist:

I'm so me- VA Streetz ft Mitchel Musso

Make A Wave- Joe Jonas & Demi Lovato

When I have a bad day I listen to my music loudly get over it.

School was alright today but class color day and games were a complete joke, like kettering does it a zillion times better.  I was disappointed big time. Then I had contest for band which wasn't too bad we got a two but I didn't really care what we got, i just saw it as one step closer to being done with band for good.  So then I get home and the laptop decides its not gonna charge anymore so its basically useless piece of crap.  Im soo mad its got my whole itunes library of a thousandish songs on there and all my english writings, I really need my own computer so I wont ever loose everything.  And then my whole family is like fighting it's been a great night lol.  Atleast Amanda is on her way and I can hangout with her all weekend and get out of this house.  I apologize ahead of time amanda on behalf of my family.  Oh and also I guess we're no longer going to Florida for spring break another disappointment tonight atleast hopefully i can go to Waterford to go somewhere else for a little but I was really looking forward to going somewhere warm laying out getting a tan by the beach reading and listening to music, oh well.

All her bracelets and rings reminded me of myself hahaha :) and I actually have the peace sign one.

I wish real life was like disney movies.

I love this necklace :)

I want to do my hair like that.

Playlist:

Break Your Heart- Taio Cruz

Hard- Rihanna

Animal- Neon Trees

My Chick Bad- Ludacris

Wasting Time- Four Year Strong

Panic Attacks Are Normal- Barely Blind

i'm all strung out my heart is fried, i just can't get you off my mind.

My english teacher today said the best thing she has said all year.  So we had to have quotes for our writing and of course she had to call on me to share one of mine.  Mine of course were all lyrics and of course they were all Jonas Brothers, so I read one but didnt say who it was and she was like who was that? and i said Jonas Brothers, and she afctually said that they were cute boys hahaha I thought shed roll her eyes or something.  and then of course theres always a d- bag guy that had to go and diss on the jonas brothers and twilight in the same sentence, like really? shut up no one asked you what you thought go sing in your musicals which by the way did you know Nick Jonas started on broadway? yeah didnt think so.  Gosh im sick of stupid high school boys who dont know when to open their mouth and when they should just shut up. I have given up on all of them unless someone shows me otherwise but I'm done. andd woww ABDC a whole episode onn Lady Gaga someone quick please change the channel ewww.

I would love to know, life would be much better then but i guess its part of the adventure of life.

I wish I could paint my nails as amazingly as this.

Playlist:

Hold On- Jonas Brothers

Bedrock- Lil Wayne

Stuck- Stacie Orrico

Your Love Is My Drug- Ke$ha

SPRINGGGG!!!!!!!

We got to play outside for lacrosse today!!!  Ha it was pretty amazing cause it was sooo nice out, all day I was like super happy I think its the weather, it has a weird effect on me lol.  I am so ready for spring break, and FLORIDA!!! hopefully, im crossing my fingers.  I love spring simply because it means we are that much closer to summer and no school :)

I hate how hard I try to believe this everyday, I shouldn't have to try so hard to believe it.

Disney!!!! I wish real life was like disney.

Playlist:

She Is Love- Parachute

One Time- Justin Bieber

Rude Boy- Rihanna

Headfirst Slide Into Cooperstown On A Bad Bet- Fall Out Boy

Fireworks- Faded Cadence

Gonna go watch starstruck :)

Today I finally got Mr.freeze and it was amazing, I've forgotten how good a cookies and cream sundae tastes, definitely going to get some more next weekend when Amanda comes down (ok scratch that Amanda and her I'm gonna eat healthy grr haha jk).  And maybe we can go to the zoo as well cause I'm pretty disappointed I couldn't go with Kaytlin and Allie today.  I really want to just spend a day taking a zillion pictures and the zoo seems like a good place to do it that and I have yet to go to the toledo zoo and I've been here a whole year.  So lets see what else did I do today hmmm I watched Hannah Montana which I am pretty sad is coming to an end, but really disney you are going to end it with a talking horse?! hahaha.

 This is so true, on more than one occasions.

They make me smile. :)

Ok now this is pretty freakin cool.

Playlist:

Every Part of Me- Hannah Montana

Follow Me Down- 3OH!3 ft. Neon Hitch

Solo- Iyaz

Something About The Sunshine- Anna Margaret

Starstruck- Christopher Wilde

A Different Side of Me- Allstar Weekend

boring day, gonna go find something to do with this day.

warning: this is going to be a long random post cause i am super bored.

So I decided I am going to start blogging again I've tried this many times before and it lasts for a little while then I stop, so we will see how well it works this time.  But today I have a cold and feel like crap, I've got nothing to do and no one to text.  Mr.Freeze opened yesterday and I still haven't gotten any it is kind of sad, this weekend is going to suck but atleast it is better than school.  I got my ACT back yesterday I did pretty good but I'm probably going to take it again and see if I do any better.  But the whole thing got me thinking about my future which no matter where that may be I've realized that the most important thing is that I want to be happy and having fun. Mmmm my dad just made literally the best ham and cheese ever I swear that made my day a little more happy :)

 Okay now don't lie to me but dont those just look deliciously amazing,  I so wish I had even the least bit talent in baking and cooking, owning a bakery would be cool.  This kinda makes me want to watch cake boss right now haha. :)

Paris how I miss you so much I promise you one day I will visit you again.  With your eiffel tour especially at night when it is all lit up it is beautiful.  literally the coolest place I have ever gone.

I think this one speaks for itself and if you are taking the time to read this I can pretty much guarantee it is not about you, dont worry.

This reminds me of my old bedroom with its walls, those were truley a piece of art haha.  Those posters took forever to collect and were all hung beautifullt organized it was a masterpiece and when I was just about finished I had to take them all down, that was a sad day.  I kind of wish I could do that again but my mother would kill me maybe I will hang them in my closet haha.

This is aboslutely the cutest thing I've ever seen, I had to put it in here.  Sadly for me though I dont know who "you" is... I wish he'd magically appear wearing a shirt that said "I'm the fish". lmao.

Playlist:

The Lost Get Found- Britt Nicole

Yes- LMFAO

Stay- Nick Jonas & The Administration

This Too Shall Pass- Ok Go

Where's My Angel- Metro Station